You Make Me Smile , (:

2010-05-01T10:03:00.000-07:00

Lately been studying like mad putting in so many hours & more effort den i used too~Have no choice really don't want to have a future & be a nobody. It's gonna be a different me from now on GO FUTURE HERE I COMEE!!!!!!!!Had tuition in the morning.In the evening attended a concert called the chronowerks at victoria hall concert perform by Nanyang alumni & my school's band .Ended at 10pm,after that headed with frens to eat & slack awhile reached home about 12plus gonna dota few rounds with frens before i end the day (: Pictures will be uploaded tmr or soon .

2010-04-16T09:26:00.000-07:00

Sorry people have not been updating been kinda busy & lazy to post~ xD
On Thursday the cell group had a surprise little party for me thanks alot made my birthday more memorable ^^ & I've just got back from I.R.C been dere to celebrate my advance bday !Ate Bishamon at plaza for lunch & played pool & lan gaming till 11plus .I really would like to thank these people for coming for my birthday & celebrating with me SWEET 16 !! (: Although my bday on monday 19th april lolololol~ So i thank these people the whole cell group,family,bro's who came for today & those who can't make it & to those who say happy advance bday to me thank you loads!& alot more but lazy to type anymore tmr got price giving ceremony in school needa wake up early gonna orhorh le Bye!Let the picture do the rest (: Oh btw thanks Nicholas TEO for bringing up the birthday bash today & actually really doing it -.- Sorry abt that kick accidentally psps ! erm & a picture of my dragon boating~the birthday pictures sort of overdue so have to wait awhile~

2010-03-27T09:39:00.000-07:00

Okay so i woke up today at 10.30am had tuition at 11.00am to 1.00pm .After that rushed down to get Jerray's birthday present at lot1. Took 67 to his house cut cake at 4.00pm after that we went to play basketball had loads of fun ~ At about 8.00pm headed back to his house for dinner stayed till 11pm, reached home at 11.40pm .Those who attended the party were , 3 girls not very sure how spell their name so nvm them XD Parry,Nicholas,Zhengxian,Yonghao,Bernard & Ian (: Happy advance birthday to you Jerray!! Will update the pic's another day don't have them with me now .

2010-03-17T09:12:00.000-07:00

Okay so today i went out with my brother JOSEPH! HAHA!! Met him at bukit batok east mac at 2plus pm ate lunch dere till 3plus .Bus-ed to ION reached at 4plus pm .Den we walk & walk from ion to atrium to taka back to ion to far east back to ion den to 313 somerset den back to ion den back to 313 somerset to buy clothes & jackets hahas bought 2 shirts from top man 1 shirt from far east & 2 jackets from Uni Qlo . After that from 313 we walk to dhouby gaut cathel to eat Aston treated him to dinner (: Had fun but oso damn tired hahas .I will end this post with the picture of Jo getting ready to eat HAHA!

2010-03-16T09:12:00.000-07:00

Hey woke up in the morning at 8.00am, dad fetch Jf & me to school as there is a 2hr math supplementary .After that bus-ed back home with Jf.At 4.00pm left house to meet him again bus-ed to westmall to meet Isaiah,Jimson,Cheekiat & Joseph at westmall .After that we bus-ed to weiwei's house for bbq although it didn't turn out as i expected but overall its quite okay.Bbq ended at 7.00pm for some of us .After that Junfeng,Cheekiat,Jimson,Joseph & me bus-ed to I.R.C to meet Dixon . We played a few games of pool & a few hours of lan till 11pm plus ?Sorry Joseph can't pei you makan both Junfeng & me parents kpkb le hahas .So i bus-ed back home with him again with this i end the post~

2010-03-13T09:02:00.000-08:00

I woke up in the morning as usual had tuition at 10.30am for 2hours till 12.30 >< After that at 2 plus left house to go to church, service ended at 5.30pm . After that went to KFC ate with Tatsuro & JieXiang =D chatted awhile with clement & Co before leaving to find YaoSheng at Study corner.Had a short sparring with him (: After that we headed to I.R.C played a few matches of pool,den we played lan for awhile till 11pm . After that he treated me to prata (: thanks bro! You made my day less boring thanks (:

2010-03-12T08:39:00.000-08:00

Today's the last day of the workshop from school after 3 days finally was like having depression luh!After the program ended. Jf,Gc & me headed home to prepare for the celebration of jim's birthday!CONGRATS on turning 16!!!=D We headed to plaza sing played arcade for awhile while waiting for a few late comers -.- den headed to cathel to eat from this place called Aston for lunch ate at 5plus =.=" . After i left them & headed to find QiQi took bus with her to bukit merah met with Saphix played lan till around 11pm ? After that noting much to elaborate lol . Dammit Life's just so unfair !! T.T!!Sorry peeps now den post since feb 14 2010 been kinda busy & lazy =X

2010-02-14T06:55:00.001-08:00

Okay so i celebrated chinese new year today went to a few relatives houses greeted,ate,chat & took hong bao . My hongbao's are getting lesser due to many relative of old age who died already or having problems remembering to give them to me =.=" Haiz sian luh pathetic sia!Hope next year would be a better chinese new year HAHA!Took a pic with my sis so unglam stupid Dm cut my hair ! ):

2010-02-06T08:20:00.000-08:00

Hello,celebrated Celest's bday today , HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY TO CELEST'S!! (: Grats on turning 15 ^^ . Woke up at 9.30am today had tuition at 10.00am~12.00am shag sio~ After that bathe & change den went down to slack awhile with ZhiYan,Hongtat & kheerong as they were doing flag day at bukit panjang.
After that met Junfeng at Plaza den headed to my home slack & play-ed dota awhile later kheerong came ,awhile later he left & headed home to change . After that Junfeng,Guanchin & i bus-ed to bugis went to walk walk at the bugis street while waiting for those people so long >< bought a ring hehe . Met up with Hongtat,Zhiyan,Vivien,Lia,Xinyi,Meihoon,Yiwei,Benjamin & one more girl forget her name at food junction lol~Ate lunch dere , After that headed @ haji lane to seesha hahas had quite a fun time dere , slack dere till 10pm. After that headed to @iluma for awhile den bus-ed back home with Kheerong & celest (:

2010-02-04T01:21:00.000-08:00

School was once again full of joy & laughter & bullshit lol!Had supplementary after school tired sia end at 3.15pm after that slack with Dixon,Benedict & Brandon for awhile den headed home here are some random pictures i took of my dog awhile ago XD

2010-02-03T04:54:00.000-08:00

Heyy a short post for today felt really sick today went to school in the morning like on drugs like that so drowsy keep coughing & nose block & ear block >< School ended 2.15pm today after that slack outside school till 3plus den bus-ed back home with Guanchin & Junfeng (: Went home & studied ,After that at 7.00pm clement came down to panjang plaza to treat me dinner as he just got his pay so nice of him (: Here's a picture of him eating HAHA!

2010-01-30T07:53:00.000-08:00

Okayy so i went church today with Jialiang (: Hahas after that we headed to Queens way shopping centre go his fren angkong shop buy things & slack was fun (: After that a long journey back home .Today was supposed to be our first month & i really wanted to buy smting for you , guess things don't always turn out the way you want it hahas . Shall end my post for today (:

2010-01-29T17:45:00.000-08:00

Hello this a post for yesterday which is on Friday forget to post >< School was pretty fun & enjoying Yesterday ended pretty fast too's .After that bus-ed back home with Zhijie,Caryn,Celes,Guanchin & Junfeng (: Reach-ed home le bathe & change waited for a few people don't know why so long so hungry le !From 1plus wait till 3plus den met Guanchin,Hongtat,Zhiyan,Celes,Kheerong,Junfeng,Jimson& Cheekiat at the bus stop near my house Bus-ed to Causeway Point cause my Phone repair hao le can go take hahas so good luhs so many people pei me! Hongtat & Junfeng went to pierce their ear hahas!Zhiyan help me extend my 2nd ear hole it's superrr pain!But, thanks Zhiyan! HAHA!After that we split up , i went with Junfeng,Cheekiat & Jimson to find Nicholas, Im freaking jealous of his hair okay! Overlap sideburn & fringe so long so cool okay! Hahas after that bus-ed back to panjang with them pei Nicholas eat his dinner den i head-ed home pretty fun day!(:

2010-01-23T09:56:00.000-08:00

Okay woke up 9.30 am in the morning cause got tuition at 10am tired bodoh~Todaay suppose to go K-box with farid & co but it was canceled =.=" so met up with jialiang & co went to arena to play pool, play till 6plus pm,den went to jp took bus to csc met up with guanchin & vivien for another round of pool till 7plus pm (: After that headed to cheeshoon house for steamboat it was fun i truly enjoy-ed myself been a long time since i enjoyed this much thanks cheeshoon for organizing it (: Junfeng,jimson,thianseng,ziyang,pohwei,cheeshoon,dixon & joseph was dere hahas . Stay-ed his house till 10 pm plus den cab-ed home with junfeng (:
||Miss baby soo much, i wanna share your burdens, i wanna be by your side when ever you need me,I love you very very much (: ||

2010-01-22T05:13:00.000-08:00

School was once again full of laughter,lessons past by quite quickly today (: Loads of remedial s,tuition,homeworks & projects . A tiring & very busy year feeling tired already /: hahas.After school slack awhile at sc area ,den bus-ed back home with Guanchin,zhijie,caryn & celes(dunno how spell ps >< ) Bath-ed & got ready to meet Gordius,Jimson,Junfeng & denise at jp for a movie called the tooth fairy a funny movie (: Enjoy-ed myself as it was a form of relaxation . Saw jeslyn,zhiyan & jun jie at jp too (: Really wanted to meet you today baby ): Even though we just met a few days ago i really miss you alot~ I know you're having quite a hard time many things happen hope everything will be alright soon (: cheer up & be strong =D My ears & shoulder's are dere for you (; Hope to see you soon, love you loads!!=]

2010-01-19T06:15:00.000-08:00

The Road Less Traveled

How often we must bear the challenges of life;
The endless roller coaster between happiness and sorrow;
The constant ups and downs of daily strife.
And always the question remains .... why?

Life is not an easy road for most;
It twists and turns with many forks in the road,
Although always, and inevitably, we are given a choice ...

Do we turn to the right ... or the left?
Do we take the high road ... or the low road?
Do we take the easy path ... or the difficult one?

Decisions are not easy for those struggling for direction ...
And sometimes the many choices and signs become overwhelming.

While standing at a crossroads in life,
The urge is to take the most comfortable path;
The road with least resistance ...
The shortest or most traveled route.

And yet, if we've been down that comfortable road before;
Have gleaned its lessons in life, and learned from our experiences;

Do we yet again follow the known?
Or does our destiny lie in another direction?

The fear of the road less traveled is tangible and all too real;
It manifests itself in many ways,
And tends to cloud the issues that might otherwise be clear.

It is in these times of confusion,
That we must seek peace and solitude;

Time to contemplate on our life,
Our experiences and our choices past;
Time to look back, and reflect on what we have learned
Without fear or confusion.

For only each of us knows our own personal thoughts;
Our unique past and personal history;
The experiences that brought us to the crossroads we now face.

We can always learn a small degree from others experiences,
And yet ... no one person can walk in our shoes,
Others know not, the trials and tribulations faced in private ...

For each is individual ... unique ... and personal.

And that is why ... while standing at a crossroads,
Only "we" can formulate the decision for ourselves;
The true direction that lies within;
The choices we must deliberate on with clarity and wisdom.

For it is only through personal reflection,
That we can now choose our destiny;
... Our next adventure;
... And the future we will embrace.

Endure
If I can endure for this moment,

whatever is happening to me.
No matter how heavy my heart,
or how dark the moment may be.
If I can but keep on believing,
what I know in my heart to be true.
Then darkness will fade into morning,
and with this dawn a new day, too.

Just though this poem's were very true & encouraging (:

2010-01-03T06:03:00.000-08:00

Helloooo ,
Feifei here , ((:
I'm helping Baby to post k ~ (x
went to boonlay meet w Cheryl today , (:
walk quite alot today ,
and Baby was quite tired k , :/
Around 4 plus , meet w Yaosheng .
and went to BoonLay shopping centre ,
Baby play pool w Yaosheng , (:
after tht ,
accompany Cheryl till her blk downstairs ,
then bus to Gombak ,
meet GuanChin they all , (:
Slack till 7 plus and cabbed home , (:

( A short post ,
Don't know how to help Baby post luhs , .___. ! )

2009-12-25T23:57:00.000-08:00

Hmm,okay so i spent my christmas starting with a party at 4.00pm with my uncles,aunties & cousins had bbq was'nt too bad the party lasted till 10pm guess where was the party at .......SIMEI!!!After that dad fetch me to Mingxuan's house for overnight but due to some problem i was'nt able to stay overnight at his house so at 11plus i headed from his house at marsiling to woodlands met up with FeiFei & her fren to tonned (: Mingxuan said he coming at 2plus am ......ZxZx he dua me next day still haven come . So at 2plus am i called Hongtat to cabbed down paid half of his fare thanks brother! (: So we tonned till 8plus am den bus-ed back home . I reach home straight away sleep le LOL!!Now getting ready to go back causeway point fixed my handfone so i end my christmas like these ciaouus~

2009-12-19T05:36:00.000-08:00

Random pictures:
Yo!!Went to church this morning was great! Had candlelight service !! After that headed to westmall to find dixon,joseph,benedict & ziyang . We slack for awhile till 8plus pm den we headed home ! WTF LUHS! Dunno what's the problem with my dad! so fuck up! now adays keep come home scold & shout at me jibai damn du lan fucker!seriously pissed off!

2009-12-15T03:48:00.000-08:00

Heyy!! Went out with mingxuan & brandon to sembawang park to catch crab!! It was fun larhs!!we caught 3!!(: Xia suay catch halfway heavy rain make us tio drench!!Mingxuan hurt his foot while i hurt my thumb when we were catching the crabs in the sea >< HAHA tmr we will be going to play basketball tgt !! (:

2009-12-06T07:51:00.000-08:00

Hi!My ah ma birthday today ! Eat good food again HAHA!Wa i think very zai le lor she still alive you know she how old le mah 80plus le lea! CLAPCLAP! Finally met up with my cousins they changed quite alot siann my 2 closest cousins going ns this year & next year im all alone!! ): Haha nevermind , hmm i go watch taiwan drama bah damn nice! Not sleeping today leaving house at 5.30am later got things on HAHA! Byes~

2009-12-05T07:03:00.000-08:00

Heyy today had class outing at old turf city had barbecue & steamboat eat all you want at $18 pretty good HAHA!I'm quite surprise that quite alot ppl turn up haha dere was zhiyan,yaosheng,guanchin,hongtat,junfeng,kheerong,denise,arvin,jerome,zhiqin,fiona & dixon . We ate from 4plus till 7plus hahas . After that a few of us headed to I.R.C & LanLab to play l4d2 & dota . After that Kr,jf & me headed to a nearby coffee shop to eat somemore food lol we keep eating sia like non stop xD Gosh im so full now that i can vomit anytime ><. kay let the pictures do the rest of the talking (:

2009-12-03T08:54:00.000-08:00

Went to dhouby ghaut , After that headed to westmall to find meihoon played arcade for awhile den headed to the cinemas to watch new moon pretty gd eh lots of chiobu's xD Here's a sad story:10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

2009-12-02T10:13:00.000-08:00

0kay0kay so i went with clement & co to play pool & counter strike at I.R.C after that celebrated felicia birthday with Jo & CO , & den went with junfeng tried l4d2 damn fun luhs ohh myy!! MUST PLAY LUHS!!

2009-12-01T07:35:00.000-08:00

Hello (: Woke up at 2pm today, after that got ready to leave house meeting up with jerray & old friends at his house (: Was great meeting them catch up the old times we had together , we played basketball till 7.00pm after that headed to jerray's house for dinner lots of laughter & jokes =D Had fun today will miss you guys man (:

2009-11-21T07:08:00.000-08:00

Hmm, today had church went together with Jialiang HAHA. After that jo came to find us ate dinner together. After that headed to arena dere to play pool & see ppl drive the GO-CART haha . ok luh enough talk see the pictures HAHA!

2009-11-16T06:25:00.001-08:00

Yesss!! Finally got a new phone! Can finally post some real pictures le WHOOHOO!Today woke up at 11plus am dota-ed with joseph a few games till 3plus pm . After that went to eat lunch at panjang plaza with GuanChin,JunFeng & Joseph .After that we headed to GuanChin's house to play mahjong Jo & me was kinda noob at that game! HAHA! But guess what!? At least we got win a few rounds! WOOTS!From 5plus till 9plus we played mahjong!Damn its quite addictive lol .After that headed to mac bought apple pie & chocolate sundae!~ Yummy~ Now at home gonna dota ! (:

2009-11-07T09:18:00.000-08:00

0kay been sleeping quite early this few days due to stomach pains . Haha hmm today had church went together with Cheekiat & Junfeng after that we met up with jimson at westmall to have dinner . which was about 7plus . Den we headed for I.R.C played counter-strike & L4D till 10plus haaha had lots of fun & great laughs today HEHE! When got more interesting days den i post Byes~ (:

2009-10-30T07:36:00.002-07:00

Moving On

I am moving on
reaching toward my hopes and dreams
It has taken me far too long
to reach this place, it seems

My fears may try to hold me back
To try and block my way
But with courage and faith in my heart
I will get there come what may

The road will be a long one,
And it may be rocky, too
But when I reach this place in time,
My dreams could all shine through

I am coming nearer to my goals
And my excitement grows
The plans I have made will soon be real
Along with the destiny I chose

Though I have been tossed and turned in life's storms
I will surely see a brighter dawn
I'm no longer held back by my fears
I'm finally....Moving On

Finally posting again!! (:

2009-10-23T09:16:00.000-07:00

I GOT NO MOOD LE LUHS! Won't be posting for days Bye~

2009-10-19T07:54:00.000-07:00

0kay w0ke up at 1.00pm today after that went to gombak to meet up with xinyi & meihoon . Ate my lunch den we headed to Causeway point cause Meihoon want to buy book, after that dunno why i still very hungry so we decided to go pizza hut & eat . Damn i spent so much just on food HAHA =.=" Today alot of ppl dua me !!! ): After that headed to westmall met up with zy,jo,ts & cs for dinner at mac den headed to arcade till 9plus pm . After that said my goodbye & tadaaa~ im home . yeah lame right 0.o HAHA
I want go watch Anime & dota with brothers le ciaouus~ (:

2009-10-17T09:55:00.000-07:00

Haha shall say the highlights of today played pool with Cheeshoon, Joseph & PohWei (:

2009-10-16T10:11:00.000-07:00

Guess what, its Saturday morning 1.12am .Bored like mad just online cause watching movie & went out hahas . Im sitting down on my chair staring at the computer drinking my apple tea .
Last of all , 我还在想你。 But i guess the only thing i can do now is to look at you from a distance ): Gosh feel like spending all my hard earn money on pool or something wanna have fun . Kinda bored~ My eyes are swollen 0.o ! Everyday not a single day that i didn't miss you . Don't know whats wrong with me ): hmm , still too early to sleep shall go watch anime
Ciaouus~~

2009-10-09T04:55:00.000-07:00

HAHA today was maths paper 1 & i feel proud of myself (: Paper ended at 9.20am damn early luhs dunno what to do with myself .Headed to lot1 with benedict, junfeng, jerome & hilratu for breakfast, wanted to eat pepper breakfast(i rename it as it was still very early)Guess what!?I reach the stall le hor the owner say not ready yet!!SIANNN BODOH!!!!! So benedict went to buy first den he come back i dun feel like eating le's den Junfeng, hilratu & me pangseh him HAHA PAISEH LEA BENNNNNNEEEEDDDIIIIICCCCTTTT! I GAVE YOU $1 AS MY CONDOLENCES XD. Kay after that headed home, waited till 12.30am den left house meet up with jimson, conan, Junfeng & chuanbo at westmall . We played arcade for 1hours plus den headed to MOS BURGER to eat . After that we headed to Funan collect my pay (: oo so happy luhs is straight cash . Den went to buy a shirt , a wallet . $5 top up ez-link & eat , 心痛 T.T!!!

2009-10-06T00:02:00.000-07:00

-A chapter has ended , a new chapter has begun-

2009-10-04T05:28:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 10.00am to study today. Left house at 12plus go meet my cousin, been a long time since i met him had lots of fun . Later met up with Dixon & wenke to play LAN together with my cousin but sad no more space so we headed home haha .My cousin ANGKONG nice !!!! (:

2009-10-02T10:31:00.000-07:00

Stressed & depressed with everything around me . Need to relax & chill out . You guys probably dunno how much hurt i was going through . I realize that i was actually torturing myself after daphne told me herself . Everything is just all squeezed up in my brain . Thanks for support & advice from friends, brothers & sisters (: Don't know what would i do without you guys . _ . Well i can't seem to think straight, you guys probably don't see it cause I'm always making jokes , smiling & laughing . I guess she dunno how much hurt & joy I've been through .But times spent with her was memories that will never fade .Forgetting ever loving you was like forgetting someone i never met , Well i guess we just weren't meant for each other, separate ways we go .The roads & paths i walk was always narrow,things happen that i could have avoided, but no one can predict the future.Trails & obstacles will always block the road , but yes i will overcome it all .Through failures, success comes . I have to say this, but after the day when i told you i like you my life changed, my person change, lots of things change .But i guess i can't risk everything for just one tree & I'm still young anyway (: My life is complicated , who's life isn't ? I heard this phrases "Tiongxim first to die, Hongster never die" , "Tiongxim die with a broken heart , Hongster die with pride " Funny its seems true & false to me at the same time . People say love is complicated, weird & blind . How i wish i could control it, but i guess that wouldn't be called love anymore wouldn't it ? I wish i could stop my heart from loving any girl anymore but i guessed its in my blood i"m a guy it can't be stopped . A friend said this when it starts how you wish it will never end , but when it ends how you wish it never started .Life is full of surprises & full of twist .Well you can't stop time neither can you forward time & time is precious . Therefore i will continue this road till the end where my destiny is waiting for me (:

We all have to die one day, sometimes it's scary knowing that you will die one day but all i know is that i want to live my life in this world with happiness . I am in this world but not of this world , i walk by faith & not my sight . So with this i end this post Goodnight & takecare peeps .
ciaouus~

2009-09-30T00:52:00.000-07:00

At the root of insanity
Is having too much time on your hands--
Too much time to think--
Too much time to remember past hurts
And to wish things could be different. Too much time spent alone,
Staring at these four walls
With too much time to think,
To remember past hurts
And to wish things were different. Got to rid myself of this insanity.
I'll busy myself with a flurry of activities
And seek the companionship of others.
They´ll tell me time heals all wounds, But for now I'll still cry--
When I have too much time to think
And remember past hurts,
Wishing things are different.

2009-09-22T03:46:00.000-07:00

This post is a story of a boy . He was born into this world on 19/04/94 ,the minute he was born he was a christian .As seconds passed , minutes passed , hours passed , days passed , weeks passed , months passed & years passed he was soon going to primary school . Made many new friends had fun & studied hard results were all 0kay not too bad not too good . When he was P5 he had a fight with 2 of his good friends ended up having a gang fight someone told the principle & they were called out during lesson , the end results was the boy was to be caned after the weekend . He was so afraid he prayed & prayed on that day he was to be caned the principle told him that there won't be any caning as the discipline master is on leave . couldn't he had cane the boy instead ?This was a miracle .When he was P4 he got to know of this girl , she was really cute & quite pretty .as days passed he started to have feelings for her . He jio-ed her until P6 when she finally told him she like him . Soon he pop the question & poof they were both in a boy-girl relationship soon it was PSLE he studied real hard but only got enough points to go normal academic he cried real hard .His mum had force him to study real hard even when he couldn't take it she would continue to make him study . When he shouted back at her she would take the cane & caned this boy , once she threw his favorite toy & he cried non-stop for days . He hated her , had thoughts of wanting to kill her when he grew older . He was under so much stressed that thoughts of suicide were in his mind .
Holidays ended he was going to a new school ,a new environment & new friends . He made many new friends on the first day of school . He was a boy in love with god after seeing so many things happening around him he could say no to temptations so easily . Slowly a few months passed & this boy's feelings for his girlfriend had started to fade . He did not want to tell her cause he did not want to hurt her , he rather she told him that she wanted a breakup with him den him telling her that soon enough a few days passed & she msg him that she wanted a breakup . What was his answer ? Boy:"I understand im sure you have your reasons , well love can't be forced im willing to let you go hope you can find a better guy will meet up with you when im free (: ".
Soon it was his second year in the school he became naughtier often scold vulgar words & even defiance to the teachers but he still managed to say no to smoking & drugs probably still in love with god . Soon it was the third year & he was wearing long pants . He had jio-ed many girls but always before the girls had the chance to accept him or reject him he would often give up & told them he didn't like them anymore that was why he couldn't find a girlfriend . It was the 3rd month when he let go & asked a primary school friend to teach him how to smoke . He smoked but he only tarek a few times so he wasn't addicted to it . He could quit it anytime . Months passed he started to like this girl that he knew since sec 1 he wondered why only now he had feelings for her it has been almost 3 years he found her so cute & pretty which he didn't really find in the previous years . He told her he liked her . He started jioing her & one day she told him she had abit of feelings for him , he was overjoyed . They went out & had fun together . The boy wanted to ask her for stead , but the girl told him that she wanted to be single for the time being so of cause he said okay i would wait for you . Days later she told him her feelings for him had suddenly disappeared . He was so shock at how fast her feelings had faded for him he was deeply hurt , he felt his heart being ripped open in that split second . He was so hurt he turned to smoking , even started to tarek . It felt so good . Soon he was addicted to it , everyday he had to smoke more den 1 stick . He told that girl he didn't like her anymore but it was a mask a lie . He couldn't forget her so he decided not to give up & continue jioing her . As there was this saying gan jue hui man man pei yang de .After about 2 months his parents found out that he was smoking & wanted him to quit . So he decided to quit since he wanted to quit it soon anyways if he had drag longer it would had been harder to quit . So today he managed not to smoke any sticks although with much difficulty . Well this boy has OFFICIALLY QUIT SMOKING FROM TODAY ONWARDS ! Frankly speaking if this boy hadn't know god he would have been a hardcore paikia , a smoker , probably into drugs as well , in gangs & could have been dead already no longer in this world . This boy wants to tell this girl that he still likes her & will continue to wait for her (:
There are still many more but im just summarising it , one important thing that this boy learn was to never give up in things that he really wanted , there maybe failures but this is all part of life thru failures we grow stronger .

~~~THE END~~~

2009-09-15T04:01:00.000-07:00

1. I love you

2. I adore you

3. I appreciate you

4. I care for you

5. I miss you

6. I need you

7. I want to see you

8. I can't wait to see you

9. I enjoy being with you

10. I want to help you

11. I want to be here for you

12. I feel happy when I am with you

13. I like you

14. I will help you

15. I will support you

16. I will be here for you

17. I feel honored to know you

Oh my so high now luh doing alot of stupid & crazy things . Met my NS frens had lots of fun love you guys luh!When out NS must bring me out again OK!? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2009-09-14T03:26:00.000-07:00

Finally got the time to post yay!(: This post is for the events that took place during the one week holiday.Monday went with Cs & CO to play L4D & pool ,Tuesday went to WestMall to watch G-FORCE with Gordius, Jimson & Junfeng long time since i seen that gordius,dunno what he doing sia during his SUPERRR LONGGG HOLIDAYYY!After that went to Study Corner dere to play basketball & slack with YaoSheng & CO .Thursday~Sunday was work at IT FAIR!!Need reach suntect by 11.00am off work at 9.00pm damn tiring OK!But had fun luh & make many new frens as well (:
Ciaouus~

2009-09-09T04:22:00.000-07:00

Hoho today can sleep longer one lor den my house phone & handphone keep ringing non-stop !! ZxZx!! Had movie marathon at my house this afternoon.Wa shock sia suddenly the door ding dong den i open Ah Liang over dere HAHA sooo shock sia he nber even tell me his coming.After that callled Junfeng down & we slacked together , saw Leonard too hahas .Having work at IT fair tmr till sunday . If want buy computer give me a call come visit me lehs! So tired these few days hahas 1 week holiday like not holiday like that T.T! Haiz kk i go Audi with friends le's
ciaouus~

2009-09-07T20:21:00.000-07:00

This post is for friday on Pohwei's 17th birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!(:(: Had lots of fun l4d-ed ,pooled ,ate ,drank & many more hahas! a day that nber will be forgotten haha . Hope to have more of this this year (: ohh yuhh will be posting on sunday cause will be working at IT fair on thursday~sunday from 11.00am to 12.00am around dere . Got time feel free to come & buy from my shop or visit me kay!!!
Ciaouus~

2009-09-02T01:01:00.000-07:00

So Contagious contagious contagious contagious ! Haha!

I Already Miss You

Looking back on everything,
I still remember her smile.
I wish things didn't end so soon,
And turn back time for awhile.

No matter how much it hurts,
I still love her so.
A part of me needs her so much,
Can't seem to let her go.

Knowing I won't be able to see her,
Makes my heart cry out in pain.
I can't believe we won't talk anymore,
The thought makes me wanna go insane.

She was my reason for waking up,
For the smile you see on my face.
Going a single day without her,
Makes me feel so out of place.

I was afraid of opening up,
Now I'm afraid of the next day.
Whenever I see her one last time,
I'm terrified of what she may say.

I know tomorrow will hurt,
But the tears will fade away.
Life is too short for regrets,
There will be a brighter day.

But when I see her one last time,
I won't know what to do...
When she tells me that last goodbye,
I'll whisper,"I already miss you.."

2009-09-01T04:24:00.000-07:00

Heyy everyone posting this for yesterday & today. On monday was teachers day soooooo boring!!!After that went to play basketball with Eric they all for awhile den headed home to change to meet Mogu,Xinyi & Vivien at clementi ,Went there for Karoke . Today went to meet Benedict, Xinyi & Jasmine at I.R.C to play pool quite fun xD.Headed home at 6pm plus . Been feeling like vomiting alot lately ><

||♠||A day that will never be forgotten .

2009-08-29T10:52:00.000-07:00

Arlow wa seh just recovered today den wake up 10.30am got tuition haiz . After tuition got change den headed to I.R.C to play pool with Dixon,JieLing & Mogu . After that take cab down to church , great service, message was great seriously love that guy sia HaHa . After that took mrt with mogu to suntect, aw so sad we got dere too late & had trouble finding the place too haha == Had a great time with mogu , hmm MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Ciaouss~ =.="

||♠||Complain day .

2009-08-25T05:11:00.000-07:00

Arlow people today would be a proper post hahas . Damn i forgot today supposed to start school late den i go wake up earlier ZXZX .Hahas lessons were pretty 0kay today especially english lesson threw paper balls & joke around hahas . School ended at 2.50pm after that headed to KFC for lunch at WM with junfeng,cheeshoon,joseph,zhijie,desiree,pohwei & felicia .Left at 4.00pm went home with zj,felicia & junfeng . Reach home tried to repatch audi again & guess what its still not freaking working!! & hor the internet down ihave to ownself fixed it back stupid MIO!Damn sian can't play audi with friends le . When i playing not all of them playing now i can't play all of them are playing ZZZZZZZZZZ!!!! Nbermind i still got dota lol . Hmm hehe hmmm hehehehe hmmmmmm hehehehe DAMN AUDITION!!!! ):

||♠||Boring day .

2009-08-24T06:14:00.000-07:00

Arlow im updating because this girl called mogu force me too -.-" Hmmm came school on the dot but stomach pain so go toiliet pang sai untill quite long din attend assembly lol . After that blah & blah & blah & blah blah blah(ETC) ZXZXZX lol lol lol lalalalalalalalalalalalala . Now talking to mogu & cheekiat LOL
Ciaouus~

||♠||谢谢!

2009-08-23T07:41:00.000-07:00

~~~SPECIAL THANKS TO MEIYUN~~~

||♠||It was a fun day .

2009-08-21T09:55:00.000-07:00

Im home~School was pretty fine today, im surprise that Mr Chin did not hold us back for DnT yay!!School ended Jf & me went home . I studied abit, eat lunch, played with my dog,feed my dog,bath & got change to get ready to meet Mogu, junfeng & cheeshoon at bukit batok interchange . After that bus-ed down to I.R.C to play L4D & pool with friends was so fun !! Oh my god!! i MET MARKKK!!! So long never see him le i wonder how's he doing in NS hahas so good sia he treat me to bubble tea ^^ After that Jun feng & me bus-ed down to bukit panjang met with Dixon & CO, slack for awhile den walk home.

Ciaouus~

||♠||A poem that is so real .

2009-08-18T01:36:00.000-07:00

My Gift To You

I live through my dark existence only to bask in your beauty your eyes that shine like sapphires your smile that brightens even my sad existence I envy the wind that runs through your hair that touches your lips I long to touch you to hold you in my arms but I cannot for your heart belongs to another so, I can only love you from afar your friendship means more to me than anything this world provides but like an angel you touched my heart in a way that I've never felt before cause I've never known what love is until this dayI know that we are only friends but my heart wishes it to be more so I will still hope and dream that one day I can feel your lips pressed to mineto hold you in my arms and say, "I love you"

||♠||Long day at school .

2009-08-17T00:31:00.000-07:00

Hello's im back from school uhhh hope i dun flunk my history test plsplsplspls (: Today din really have much jokes the only lesson that i joke & laugh the most was english the teacher is so funnnyyyy~!Sorry mogu i took your Mr.Greedy den nber return back hahas will return ya tmr (: Hope tmr would be a day full of fun,joy & laughter HAHAS . MY HAIR IS SO FREAKING SHORT!! Du lan with the barber sia Zzz .
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY DIDI HAVE FUN TODAY! DON'T WORRY MOGU & I WIL MEET UP WITH YOU SOON HAHAS
Tim to study le ciaouus~~

||♠||L4D madness!

2009-08-15T09:18:00.000-07:00

Arlow ps busy so nber update .Hahas today went to church service with ZhiJie & JunFeng , service ended quite early today . After that went with CG slack at KFC for awhile , den Zhijie,JunFeng & me walk to pioneer mrt . Said goodbye to zj & we headed to westmall to find mogu . Went to I.R.C to play left4dead had alot of fun play untill 10.40pm den we decided to slack & eat at Mc Donald . Reach home at about 11.40pm . Hahas got to do some admin work .

Ciaouss~

||♠||Lonely day .

2009-08-10T05:10:00.000-07:00

Went to Wm to watch movie with parents GI.JOE pretty good show yeah . Hahas things happen, people change, i guess love is not really meant for me ? Did silly things due to love, i feel that im no longer my usual self .Thank's brother's for your love & care but don't worry about me i guess i will be doing fine ? I got to get on with life, love is killing me , or should i continue & perservere like what i always do ? But you know it's tiring & sad having to do that all my life .That's all i got to say for today . Sorry no human pictures cause phone usb not working . Bye & takecare ~

2009-08-07T18:49:00.000-07:00

Heyy people im posting this for friday cause came home very tired so din post =X

Kayy had national day celebations in school , performance were 0kay.

After that went with friends to I.R.C sadly no space so we waited for about 30mins ?After that we took bus & cab down to westmall, play arcade for awhile den ate lunch at KFC .After that some of us went to causeway walkwalk ,the rest walk to gombak to find another group of friends .Went to friends house to play mahjong!

After that took bus & head to I.R.C again to play pool & L4D lol .

Played till 11plus , quite fun xD!!

Took bus home with JunFeng & thats the end of the fun day hahas .

Ciaouus~

2009-08-05T06:35:00.000-07:00

I have no idea why keep on so moodless these days,even though i still joke around but its just a mask ): haiss .

I guess so far studies are going the right way but other things i guess not so ?):

Today got cca & guess what ? i decided to go lol, nber go for like 2 months ?Wa suddenly so many things change now become more physical ,last time is super slack .Cca ended at 6.15pm ,waited for junfeng for about 20mins (Npcc so slow)? Hahas

Feeling so chui & tired now confirm got muscle ache when i wake up tmr ,worst tmr got kayaking from 1.00~6.00pm at east coast dere confirm even more chui~~I hope its fun though . (:

Lets go through this period of time together , kay bro's ??(:(:

Never give up!!!

Ciaouus~

2009-08-04T05:44:00.000-07:00

*Yawn* Today lessons were pretty boring, hahas study study study study!!I think im going crazy ,now adays if one day don't study i feel so freaking weird & it makes me wanna study more more!!Ughh my nose bleeding lol . I need to study & do other things with my friends to stop thinking about ............. Haha Cheer up Benny focus on your studies . Wow got more den 5 spare phones & they are all not working heng got good friends who are always dere to help me (:

Its been a long time since i had this feeling, love it & hate it . Haiz what should i do ?? ):

Oh my can't believe i tio psycho go to kayaking this thursday !! ==

I hope i won't regret it ~

想你心很快乐又很痛，我不懂为什么那么多年我爱的人还是你~

2009-08-02T03:56:00.000-07:00

Yawn been feeling down lately ,not much mood for anything just feel like studying & studying untill i go crazy. Here are some random photos i took.

Ciaouus ~

2009-07-29T03:51:00.000-07:00

Uhhhh finally back from detention,the detention is really boring spent 2hrs writing a 400 word essay & looking at a wall T.T!Aw today tio another detention so its 2 detentions minus the one today which means im left with one more detention T.T!!But 0kay luh quite happy can skip cca cause of detention xD .Chiong back home to study for Design & technology test on friday cause tmr after school got remedial untill 5.00pm den 8.00pm untill 9.30pm got tuition *sigh* ,won't be updating tmr .Wa lau i nber study for 3 test sia din know got test == hehe but the teachers all say i do untill quite good WOOTS~
Kaykay time to relex again.
=X
Ciaouus~

2009-07-28T03:42:00.000-07:00

Wa brain pain,0.o heng the detention post haben up yet so for now still dunno when got detention.Phew today almost got another 2 more detentions, (1)late by a few minutes because of stupid bus so long & got traffic jam,heng got alot of ppl late with me in that bus so Dm let us off 7 (2)Doing relief period walking about outside class kana caught by Dm heng he let us off so good sia (:
School ended at 2.50pm,went home with Junfeng reach home about 3.40pm & you know what!? Tuition started at 4.00pm!!!!SO basically whole day study all the way until 6.00pm . Sorry uh blogger go siao already can't upload pictures so for now no pictures for my post pspspsps ):
KayKay time to relex & play dota with my friends .
Ciaouus~

2009-07-27T05:58:00.000-07:00

ETERNAL LOVE

I wonder if I dreamed of you-
if you would appear?
To make my nights full of love,
and always hold me near.

I wonder if I thought of you-
if you would feel it in your soul?
Like two spirits in the universe,
who always seem to know.

Even if the stars went black
and the sun were to shine no more.
They could find their way to each other,
no matter how far the shore.

Safely in each other's arms,
to bid the rest of time.
Finding Eternal Love
so many seek to find.

Caring for each other
through the worst of storms.
Leaning on the arms of love
and never need anymore.

This is how I feel for you,
I've known it all along.
You are my one true love
My world.. My heart.. My soul!

2009-07-27T01:32:00.000-07:00

Noooooooo!Tio detention!!!!!Confirm super sian one,feel like skipping .*Clap*Clap* to Dixon & Ivan for climbing the school fence to run away from the school's barber!Today school was pretty much full of laughter & nonsense hahas .I suddenly feel like doing some crazy stuffs RAWRR!Now need to chiong my studies & tuition/school homework as well as the DnT Major Project may not be updating as often as previous months so sorry vey busy .Been Feeling kinda of moodless this few days ~ Ciaouus (:

2009-07-26T08:00:00.000-07:00

Special thanks to Judith Soh Chee Ping~ LOLOLOL

2009-07-25T23:27:00.001-07:00

Heyy my blog is currently unavailable~Due to technicical problems,will be back shortly!(:

You Make Me Smile , (:

Moving On

So Contagious contagious contagious contagious ! Haha!

I Already Miss You

Just Friends?

||♠||A day that will never be forgotten .

||♠||Complain day .

||♠||Boring day .

||♠||谢谢!

||♠||It was a fun day .

||♠||A poem that is so real .

||♠||Long day at school .

||♠||L4D madness!

||♠||Lonely day .