Friday, October 2, 2009
Stressed & depressed with everything around me . Need to relax & chill out . You guys probably dunno how much hurt i was going through . I realize that i was actually torturing myself after daphne told me herself . Everything is just all squeezed up in my brain . Thanks for support & advice from friends, brothers & sisters (: Don't know what would i do without you guys . _ . Well i can't seem to think straight, you guys probably don't see it cause I'm always making jokes , smiling & laughing . I guess she dunno how much hurt & joy I've been through .But times spent with her was memories that will never fade .Forgetting ever loving you was like forgetting someone i never met , Well i guess we just weren't meant for each other, separate ways we go .The roads & paths i walk was always narrow,things happen that i could have avoided, but no one can predict the future.Trails & obstacles will always block the road , but yes i will overcome it all .Through failures, success comes . I have to say this, but after the day when i told you i like you my life changed, my person change, lots of things change .But i guess i can't risk everything for just one tree & I'm still young anyway (: My life is complicated , who's life isn't ? I heard this phrases "Tiongxim first to die, Hongster never die" , "Tiongxim die with a broken heart , Hongster die with pride " Funny its seems true & false to me at the same time . People say love is complicated, weird & blind . How i wish i could control it, but i guess that wouldn't be called love anymore wouldn't it ? I wish i could stop my heart from loving any girl anymore but i guessed its in my blood i"m a guy it can't be stopped . A friend said this when it starts how you wish it will never end , but when it ends how you wish it never started .Life is full of surprises & full of twist .Well you can't stop time neither can you forward time & time is precious . Therefore i will continue this road till the end where my destiny is waiting for me (:
We all have to die one day, sometimes it's scary knowing that you will die one day but all i know is that i want to live my life in this world with happiness . I am in this world but not of this world , i walk by faith & not my sight . So with this i end this post Goodnight & takecare peeps .
ciaouus~
Never give up;
